Friday, December 31, 2010

Happy New Year ... !!!

Happy New Year.. Happy 2011 .. !!

Good Bye 2010, Welcome 2011

The first decade of 2k is about to end in few hours and I really cant believe how fast the time flew away. I'm on my bed on the last day of this year 2010 and enjoying being sick in winters. but yea my cozy bed and quilt are giving me courage to write this post. I don't know from where to start but i really wanna give it a try.


Back in 1st January, 2000, It was a same cold morning . Me and my mum were watching new year's celebration on BBC, having tea and dry fruits. I don't know why I was at home that day. May be Winter's vacation or I took an off from school that day but yea I was at home that day. and the bell rung and I went out to check .. I still remember that foggy morning in my porch, I forgot who was at door but yea all I remember that I stopped there in my porch without caring how cold it' was out and started enjoying that fog until my mum shouted and asked me to come back. The whole day I was thinking about upcoming century. It was an excitement. 


2001, 2002, 2003 ... I passed my school and entered in a new college life.. 2004 .. I passed my high school and entered to university. A quite different life. 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008. OMg .. Think time is flying .. I passed my graduation. I was an engineer then. 2009, 2010  I started doing job. I got every other thing jus BY THE WAY .. from a school girl to a professional engineer.. that was only one side, even I got everything in my personal life.. Life went ALMOST smooth...

I never believed that things can change so fast in an year... rather iIcan't believe about that fast speed of time. I still remember when I was writing Farewell 2009 Welcome 2010, a year back..



2010 was over all the worst year of my life. I never cried that much in my whole life that I cried in 2010 and it's not an achievement.. Now I found something new for sure but I'm more upset on whatever I lost there. My loads of friends, my trust over things, and yea somehow my self confidence... I don't wanna discuss 2010 I guess. 
 

 2011 is here.. yayy .. 
 I have plans for my life now. Things will get better and if they don't I'll try to get them better. I tried hard to change me for new things, I have no clue how successful I'm but I'll improve it in future hopefully. I have wrote my New Year's Resolution as always, I randomly put them on here.. 


  • I'll change my life style (I really need to)

  • I'll NOT leave my Attitude and my Dreams (that's my possession)

  • I'll gym and aerobics everyday (ohh gym at 9 killer)

  • I'll work to remove my dark circles (yea yea I need to sleep at sharp 11)

  • I'll forgive people and forget things (at least i'll try to)

  • I'll laugh a lot (to increase my face value)

  • I'll FOR SURE act like a grown up baby (I'm a mama's baby now)

  • I'll kill whoever try to make me cry (I'm fed up yaa')

  • I'll go office early (so that I can leave early)

  • I'll change my room deco (living here from an year with same style, I need something change)

  • I'll make more mistakes (but will try to not make them regrets)

  • I'll TRY to be happy (I need it)

  • I'll drink loads of water ('cause I'm drinking 1 liter in two weeks these days)

  • I'll try to look more forward outa my window (I already explored a lot)

  • I'll try to post everyday on my blog (yea I know I was lazy at the end of 2010)

  • I'll be an optimisstic (think glass is half full now)

  • I'll be what I'm in really (sometimes I really pose, I think don't need to)

  • I'll try to get out of my past (killer) 

  • I'll not rely on anyone else while making my decisions (everyone should follow this one at least)

and yea for a new year present, here's a new look of 3yesha ... enjoy it and leave a comment that how you are taking my new look. My Blog's Make over I mean. yes I worked very hard to change it and I know where I need to change more but that was the maximum I could do with hell amount of work and dead cold around.



and a very Happy New Year .. Yuppieee ... !!!

Have a blessed 2011 with all happiness around.  and a demand from Allah ..
Guide us to the Straight Way. The Way of those on whom You have bestowed Your Grace, not (the way) of those who earned Your Anger, nor of those who went astray.
~Al-Quran
cheers.. !!
Aish ... !!!

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Wait for even better ... !!!


Don't cry when the sun is gone, because the tears won't let you see the stars.
~Violeta Parra
Don't cry on what you lost and wait for new and better to come for you.. 

I will miss you till my last breath ..

That day I was thinking you were around… a familiar fragrance was around making me think that you were nearby me. My eyes started searching and from the left to right of store and couldn’t find you … And from the left rack a guy appeared and when he passed by me…  Ohh !!!… Your strong smell perfume made me feel you around.
The other day, I was listening a song and I thought you were around. No one was there.. yea I was alone in my room. Hell what’s happening to me... And then something alerted me saying that same songs I always relates with you.
Mm that wasn't the end. One day I was talking to my friend and he said something and I thought that was you talking… and same when it was Autumn and dead leaves over the trees were making me miss you, the track we always walked on, the teddy you sent me on my birthday... Everything... !!!



Am I going mad? I always relates things with you .. fragrances, places, people, music, situations even... Is it normal.. :!!!
Somebody was asking inside me.. and the answer was I knew myself.. Till the last breath, with all senses On .. Till I can smell, I can hear, I can feel .. Until I'm alive, in all seasons. 

I will miss you. 
(The note from a lost soul's Diary)

Monday, December 27, 2010

Being Childish...


Sweet childish days, that were as long
As twenty days are now.

~William Wordsworth, "To a Butterfly"

Sunday, December 26, 2010

I don't want to be unfortunate..



Unfortunate is he who cannot gain a few sincere persons during his life and more unfortunate is the one who has gained them and then lost them.

~Hazrat Ali (R.A)

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Broken..


Sometimes I wish to be a kid again, skinned knees are easier to live a life like this.

Friday, December 24, 2010

Merry Christmas

He left her crying ...!!!

He was sucha ditcher .. He promised her to be with her till the end and now left her crying. 


I was not feeling to write since long 'cause of winters, heavy work load and a sudden death..


I don't know how long I have know him but he was here around since I'm sensible. A hard, fit and polite person and a fatherly figure for me .. Mm time passed and He got Her.. I didn't find her looks like princess but yes he treated her like that. His Soul mate.. 


Time passed and we grew up .. They were still two sharing their time with each other, making smile and wiping tears. All family and friends asked him to get married again. And he denied.. !!


I hold her hand not to leave when it requires to hold it tightly, I won't leave her ever. She' would be alone otherwise, she don't even have parents to her.


Time passed again and the solid man got heart problem. She took care of her with the best way possible. Yes she returned his favors. and then she got same problem and admitted to hospital for long and the heart patient all alone took care of her.


and in a winter morning, giving his bed tea and wanting him to make same promises again when she was trying to wake him up, and he never respond to her.


He ditcher left her crying, who promised to never see a tear in her eye. He broke his promise and I lost m words.. 

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Tomorrow Never Comes.. !!!

I'm almost sure about 12 December, 2012 to come but I know that Tomorrow never comes.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Winters...


Winter must be cold for those with no warm memories.
~An Affair to Remember (Movie)

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Yes I exist!!

One brick outa Building asks you to recognize yourself among the Crowd. Yes I exist... 

Monday, December 20, 2010

Ideal vs Real

Love is an ideal thing, marriage a real thing.
~Goethe
 Its a great idea to find one and annoy him till the end. 

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Bored with Final Project

Close your Eyes, Make a Wish, and Blow out the Candle..

19th December, 2010
I'm celebrating my Birthday today and it would be mean to not share here if I'm Happy. Yes Its my HAPPY Birthday today.. wooopieeeee .. !!! 






Finally I'm successful in spending 24 years of my life and sometimes it seems to me I'm still 4. mmm .. !! yes there's a kid inside me, and it appeared infronta a group of people only. 


Anyways .. !! I never expect this year anyone to wish me .. but I received loads of calls, text messages omg 40+ text messages are still unread.  my facebook wall is full of greetings saying Happy Birthday .~~ My msn and skype is shouting a lot today. In short everyone wished me everywhere. Mm I can't name all ['cause I still don't know who texted me that much] and  I think I shouldn't name few. But whoever wished me, Trust me you people made my day. Love my friends and family.


I got an ice cream cake for the celebration today. My mum & dad got my favorite one. I have planned to go out for fried chicken but then I decided to spend my day at home and yea with cake my mum fried a fish. I must say nothing is better than my mum's cuisine. Mmm yayy I had a party at home. 


As always forgot to make a wish before blowing candle but I'm sure the upcoming year would be a good one [inshaAllah] and at the end jus for me .. I wanna recall me The Jessica's speech on Graduation from The Twilight Saga Eclipse, I love her words and I followed her a lot and wanna follow her till the end.
When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our answers were thing like astronaut, president, or in my case… Princess.

When we were ten, they asked again and we answered – rock star, cowboy, or in my case, Gold Medalist.

But now that we’ve grown up, they want a serious answer. Well, how about this: who the hell knows?This isn't the time to make hard and fast decisions, its time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere chill. Fall in Love – a lot. Major in philosophy ’cause there’s no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind. Then change it again, because nothing is permanent. So make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be… we won’t have to guess. We’ll know.
--Happy Birthday 3yesh ..!! 

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Happy Birthday to Me..

Happy Birthday to me .
Happy Birthday to me .
Happy Birthday Dear me.
Happy Birthday to me .

Friday, December 17, 2010

May be You never know..

I care for you in my own strange way..
May be You never know.. May be I never show..

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart.  ~Kay Knudsen

No matter how hard the situation is .. We still make a Perfect Couple..

And they live happily ever after.


"Why all fairy tales have same ending?" I asked on the end of the story in a winter's night.
"'Cause they are fairy tales."  Reply was so innocent.
"So when I'll be with my prince charming, Will we be happy till the end?" I asked with curiosity.
"of course you are my princess and you will live happy forever."  She replied to me.
"Aren't you your mum's princess?"  I had a list of questions.
"Yes I'm. you granny loves me a lot." She covered me with blanket and She kissed my forehead.
"then why you were unhappy yesterday?" I asked with solemn face.
"Mm cause we are not living in the world of fairies." Her answer was making me confused.
"Then how you are smiling now and how I'll get a prince charming ?" I was so more worried about me.
"You will get everything with time and I think you should sleep now." that answer stopped me asking MORE.


"You want some." He offered her his ice cream.
"yea sure." It was a young couple at McDonald's.
and he touched his cone at her nose instead of giving her. that was funny and cute. People around were laughing over them. 
"You are mad you know." She shouted loud.
"Sowwiee .. " He was not embarrassed and girl shouted again. 
"Crazy .." and both were laughing loud. ~Strange~


I couldn't hear them but their expression was clearly showing that they were fighting. A red car was near mine on signal. The girl was driving and baby was with her hubby. They were contiguously fighting. The expressions were like they'd kill each other. 

On next signal I found them smiling. ~What the Hell~


Really What the Hell.. ~~


Omg how two people can live together for long if they clashed on every other thing. I'm watching same scene from last 24 years. They are together from last 25 years and argue on daily basis and I consider them as a ~Perfect Couple~ Masha Allah ..




Once her answer confused me "Mm cause we are not living in the world of fairies."  I'm still confused 'cause it's like fairy tale that you have issues and you are still happy.





Can't they live happy after getting into a relationship. All fairy tales you told me ended on a Prince and Princess, who got married and live happily ever after. I mean suppose consider every girl a Princess who waited for her Prince charming and finally got him and when they found in a relationship they started acting insane. I get scared when i see two people fighting or even arguing and then happy again with each other, sorry to say but even you people. 
I was so confused about things so finally i asked. And her reply made me think a lot.



Ahh all stories I told u ended on ~they live happily ever after...  It was never the end of the story, It was Real Starting. And those who really love and understand each other, no matter how hard the situation is they always make a perfect couple, like in your fairy tales.
Mmmm like you and dad. Happy 25th Wedding Anniversary to My Parents


Thursday, December 16, 2010

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

For Me...

For me ~YOU~ and that's ~ALL~

Can 3ye have You back ???

I hit my 100th follower on my blog and a voice was telling me

I always believe you, yes you can do it. I always told you jus first 100 is difficult.
I was in some trouble and a whisper was following me..

Tou pagal hai. Main hoon na. (are you crazy? I'm there for you.)
I had a fight with someone and a voice was coming from my left.

Go f* 'em up I know they are cruel for you.
I was crying for some reason and somebody was consoling me.

I'm 18 and you are 21 and I'm telling to stop crying otherwise I'll come to your country and will chop you.
I was thinking stupid and a mender was persuading me.

I can't see these tears in your eyes and I hate when you think weird. Let's solve your problem.
The five people, my besties who are no more with me now 'cause of my stupidities or may be circumstances. and all time when I get into some situation, these voices guide me and yea always left a smile there..





I know you are gone but
I feel like I’m drowning and waiting you to survive me again.
I feel like ask one more time
Can I get you back? One Last Time Please...!!
I'm missing you all badly.
I'm sure it's not possible but I wish you get my message.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Untitled

And it's a Trap...

He forgot to Live ...



He was dying to finish high school and start college.




Then he was dying to finish college and start Professional Life.




Then he was dying to get married and have children.




Then he was dying to for his children to grow up and start their lives.




Then he was dying to get retired from his work...






And then he *DIED*
In between he forgot something. *HE FORGOT TO LIVE*


Don't let this happen to you. Life is full of pleasant moments. Everyone got a window in life, All you need to open it and try to find a new other perspective towards life. 
All you need to live every moment, with your loved ones and with those who care about you. All you need to smile and make smile everyone else and You need to enjoy what you have today, 'cause there's no guarantee of tomorrow.


Yesterday is History.
Tomorrow is Mystery.
Today is Present.
so jus think about it and enjoy it...


Don't Spend your Life, *LIVE IT*

Monday, December 13, 2010

Sunday, December 12, 2010

I cant see myself without you.



I had a tiring weekend and headache is killing me but I have to write it cause I'll forget the scene if I couldn't write it now. May be I never forget whatever I had seen ;cause I'm trying since long but I still have doubt on my memory. 


It was a cold and rainy winter evening and I came early to home; I wasn't feeling well. My window I left opened in morning and my room was dead freeze. Almost sunset and it was making scene so cute. I stopped by my window. 


No one can see me in window and I can see all. I was looking for her she reached there in a bit. She used to of walking alone on the walking track side by the street. In meantime and she appeared. She was a girl with long messy wet hair on her shoulders, wearing a long gown and walking in her routine medium steps. I have no idea from where she's coming 'cause we always met her on track and we always started with a hello and ended on a smile. I felt something unusual with her today, her eyes was keep on searching for something around. she was so restless and I knew the reasons. She stopped there as usual. and after sometime sat there.




I saw someone coming from left with fast paces and he stopped near her. I have seen them together many times before on same spot. She immediately stood up, They were far away from my window and I couldn't hear anything but I know the Heart to Heart lang. 


Two Hearts were Meeting. 


Her restless face was so calm then and she was smiling. 
"You are late." 


He held her hand, she missed a heart beat. 
"I'm sorry I was stucked." 


She looked at his face and a small tear appeared in her eye. 
"I missed you." 


He wiped her tears. 
"Am I really mean to you that important?" 


She stared at his face again and sit on the track. 
"I think I would never sit here for some random guy." 


He smiled and followed same. Now both were sitting in fornt of me. She put her head on his shoulder. 
"I love you." 
She got so much courage to say it finally.The world seemed to be stopped. He held her hand again. 
"You know what you are saying?" 


She started playing with grass and plants on track. 
"I mean my words. I'm in senses." 


She was busy playing with grass and her hair were hiding her face view from both of us. He removed her hair from her face. 
"I do like you but it's so early to decide." 


I can feel tears in her eyes from that distance. 
"We shared a life together." 


He was still unsure. Nodded his head as he wanna say something very important. 
"You need to re-think about it." 


Her heart beat was so loud. She released her hand from his hands grip. 
"I never had missing parts but still I always felt so incomplete. I cant see myself without you, You complete me and I love you.You are my life." 
He gazed at her face without blinking his eyes. 
"I'm still not sure about things." 


I couldn't differentiate; the water drops were from her wet hair or they were tears. She smiled and left.


After that not only she but no one couldn't see her with or without him. Yea I have seen him many times wandering and sometimes sitting there in search of his missing part..

omg LOL

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Friday, December 10, 2010

Home

Home is a place you grow up wanting to leave, and grow old wanting to get back to.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

-!- Love Birds -!-

 I hate fighting with you. It's a waste of our time. And we need all the time we can get, 'cause there's already never enough time to be with you.<3

What She Wants ... !!!

You guys always come up with the thing that *what a girl wants*
it's seems to be a universal question now lol .. seriously.. !!




I know what Your ~She~ wants.
Trust me 99.9% girls are not about money and handsome guys. so keep trust that your she's not in 0.1%.


She wants jus a lil bit care, two words of sympathy when she's down about something. Is it too much if she wants to all you? She wants to be the ~Only One~ She don't wanna be compared and messed up with Others. If she mean a bit for you, Isn't its her Right??? She wants time, wants to be pampered all time. Girls loved it when you call and treat 'em like a baby and yea she's a big attention seeker, she wants attention. Girls are bit emotional and required to handle with a bit care. If you say she's Special, make her feel too that she's. This list isn't that big; all is on my finger tips all she wants is
Love, Attention, Time, Care, Her Self-Respect


She means to her words and she can give you ~All from her~ even if you are not giving her all she wants. She's not difficult to understand, at least you can try once.. This post is specially for ~My You!~ and Mmm .. and yea for other bloggy and facebook friends too who keep on putting their statues as *what she wants*


My Life out of my Window is awesome till now, yea I couldn't get outa Internet but I'm still enjoying change.s Yea I found another wonderful thing out there. I'll show you soon..
Cheers !!

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Time...

 Time is free, but it’s priceless. You can use it but can't own it. You can spend it but you cant keep it. Once you lost it you can never get it back.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Distance


Longest distance on earth is not from North to South.
It's when I stand in front of you and you Ignore me.

ti-shoo to-shoo

Ring a ring a roses
a pocket full of poses

ti-shoo to-shoo

we all fall down..
Two little kids were singing nursery rhymes when I peeped through my window. One girl and a boy, with school bags on shoulders were on the road, they were not going anywhere and doing something in the grass of the plot. I was getting late for office i didn't bother that much but i listen rhyming them until i left my room.




I didn't open window since long and now when I decided to go for a change for few days, I was in the back terrace after long and found them both again, doing something in grass again with heavy bags on shoulder. Perhaps they were siblings and their mom sent them to tuition and they were again spending their time in grass and bushes.  


I was continuously watching them and they had no idea about that. Even today they were rhyming loud and they were amazingly synchronized. I don't know where they live, 'cause they appeared from backside. But I think it's their best spot to hangout while going to study. 


I was watching when the little girl started crying loud. I think school bag was too heavy for her. I don't know what exactly they conversed but they sat down on the road and that ended on the thing that she gave her bag to her brother.  Now he was wearing two bags, one on back and the other on his chest. They started playing and rhyming again. 


That was so cute that I couldn't resist. They were far away and I had no idea about their names, Sshhh Shhhh ... the boy is, I think, extra active. He followed the sound and found me standing there. I smiled and waved. He was a bit confused, he told to his sister. Now both were looking up. I waved again, both smiled and ran. That time I missed being with my brother, we had a lot of fun when we were kids. Anyways ...!!!  Fortunately I had cell to me but unfortunately the pictures I captured are so blurred. 


Oh I met another cute girl today, the grand daughter of my uncle. She was so innocent jus like an angel rather the reflection of God. I loveEeeeeeEEEeeeeeeeEEeee kids. I smile every time a see one, I think everyone does.. 





Mmmm the campaign is ON against child abuse and violence. I heard that people are changing their profile pictures on facebook to their favorite cartoon character as said by the Greek website. 
Change your facebook profile picture to a cartoon character from your childhood and invite your friends to do the same. Until Monday, Dec 6th of 2010, there should be no human faces on facebook, but an invasion of memories! This is for a campaign against violence on children.
If I was ON, I would go for .. Mmm Pink Panther may be. I loved it when I was a kid. I have changed my choice now about CARTOONS :P .. 



Anyways I'm having a good time with Me and getting better. But yea Missing some people out there . and Miss me too ~please~  *sighs*  LOL  I'll be back soon. 


Saturday, December 4, 2010

an Old Piece..

It's not any artistic piece to share, but it for sure depicts a desire to have a small house to live; across the valley to lead a life I always wished for.

Think Outa Pink.. !!!

3ye have a Pink Life with a slogan ~Think Pink~ but I'm feeling like Pink thoughts are making me frustrated. I'm a bit sick of My Pink Life, My Pink Planet. I think I'm messing up with other things again. I can ruin my life again if I didn't stop Thinking Pink. Think I should take a break from every other thing in Life. I wanna go outa my Pink World. I wanna Think more than Pink. 


I'm leaving My Life for few days, may be for a week or two. Mmm I won't appear around to many people, at least I'll try to not. Now the point is if I leave this Pink Life Style, where will I proceed towards. Things are here to help me. 


I'll move to a New Life; The Life From My Window, The Life Outside My Window ...


Umm I'm not leaving it forever, I'll be back soon towards the Pink , but I wanna experience a  change 'cause somebody told me that there's a good life other than my world. I'll search for that world. I wanna move to the Real Life. 


I feel light when I tell everything to a paper or my virtual diary or my Blog. so I won't forget to share my new experiences with my bloggy. Think this post is with too much of 3ye's so lets end it here. 


For all those who find me on places other than blogger, Miss me ok!! and yea I'll receive calls, texts and mails. You can't see me but yes I can. *Winks*..  Wish me luck and give me good ideas to go outa My Window to see a New Life. 
Cheers...

Friday, December 3, 2010

-!-

To Love someone deeply, gives u Strength
Being Loved by someone deeply, gives you Courage.

Thursday, December 2, 2010